Camp Cats

At last week’s Bass Canyon Campout, Noah and Natalie brought…

Camp Cats.

Ming and Bean.

One of these pictures shows me holding Ming—who was the most adventurous of the two.

She wandered from one end of camp to the other, day and night, navigating dogs, music, fire, and humans with ease.

But…

She always came back to her trailer.

To her people.

In a swirl of masculine containment, we obviously filled the space with our own human feminine expression—music, dancing, storytelling.

But inside that swirl was something quieter.

The soft, steady presence of animals—cats and dogs—who felt safe enough to roam free.

There was something about her trust that moved me.

Her wildness.

Her return.

Maybe it’s because I’ve always loved cats.

Or maybe it’s because I saw something in that moment I want to be:

A man who protects what he loves.

A man who is a place to come home to.

Home. It's not necessarily a place, as much as it's an energy of safety and love.

Damn that cat got me. I miss her already.

Bass Canyon Campout

Four years ago, my daughter Amethyst and I organized a trek to The Gorge for our tribe (nine of us came—though we adopted two along the way) to see Excision at Bass Canyon, a three-day camping EDM festival.

We did it again three years ago, this time bringing 21 people.

Last year, alas, we couldn’t go—so I decided to create a substitute: Bass Canyon Campout, much closer to home in Wallsburg, Utah.

It was such a hit, we brought it back this year. (Bass Canyon Campout #2!)

And as usual… it took a lot of work to put together—stress, logistics, and masculine focus, direction, and presence... not to mention feminine sensation, energy, and radiance.

I admit, I was stressed going into this one.

But then… we arrived.

Wednesday night, cooler than expected, and we gathered around the fire. I sat staring into the flame, and a deep sense of satisfaction filled me.

I had done it.

I had a vision. I worked that vision—planned it out, shaped it over months, navigated setbacks and unexpected storms—and arrived here, at the fire.

I built it.

And they came.

One by one, tribe members arrived Wednesday night, setting up their camps… and ultimately joining me by the fire. We had 2 camp cats, a number of dogs, a shift pod and a jelly fish.

That’s true satisfaction.

They came.

And sat with me around my fire.

Thursday… more tribe came.

Friday… even more.

All leading to the summit of the event—Friday Night Sacred Theater—where 37 people gathered around the fire and took turns sharing sacred moments of growth, challenge, and joy.

I got to see into their hearts… as they artfully expressed their individuality.

Then Saturday: kids everywhere (a four-year-old even ran me over with a motorcycle!). Cornhole, 9 Square, the music, the vibe, the people… full camp life.

And then the arc completes.

Sunday afternoon. We sit in circle—exhausted—and share our Roses, our Thorns, and our Leaves. A sacred closing ceremony, where each of us gets to be seen in our highs and lows, with a vision for what’s to come.

All the work I put into this… was WORTH IT.

I relaxed.

I opened up.

I surrendered to the essence of my desires.

And I was delivered a continual stream of joyous surprises and delights—miracle after miracle—all of them better than expected.

Soak it in.

Soak in your victories.

And feel into that potent and profound question on the adventure of our lives:

What’s next?

Let’s go.

—Jason

Feminine Radiance and Yearning

Good Saturday Morning! Hope you all are well! I wanted to continue my exploration of Polarity this week.

She is the universe.

She is the reason we are aware.

She is the light.

And she is always yearning for more.

More connection.

More love.

More presence.

More God.

It’s feminine yearning that makes us move,

And it’s feminine radiance that makes it worth it.

This is not philosophy. This is not metaphor.

It’s truth.

It’s why men build cathedrals and empires.

Why they cross oceans.

Why they stand up—again and again—when they’ve been beaten to their knees.

The radiant feminine is the invitation. The sunset. The storm. The woman laughing with her whole body while she nurses a baby or dances under lightning.

And ladies—you can embody this.

It’s not a thought.

It’s deeper than feeling.

Beyond energy.

It is the root of existence itself.

It’s the gift you give when you open your heart fully,

When your yearning becomes a sacred call—not to manipulate, but to magnetize.

Come.

Rise.

Be a King.

Be Present.

This is why you live.

Masculine Presence (as we explored yesterday) is not about hiding in a cave.

It’s about rising to meet the entire universe—and being strong enough to hold it.

Ladies, this light? This radiant love?

It’s what makes everything worth it.

Not because it’s easy, but because it’s true.

When you express from your full feminine spectrum—rage to grace, sex to sorrow, seductress to saint—you bathe the world in the sacred.

That’s what you were born for.

This isn’t just poetics. It’s embodied truth. Learnable. Teachable. Real.

Because you are the Witness.

And you are the Light.

When you tease them apart, and let them DANCE…

When Masculine Presence meets Feminine Radiance…

That’s where love is born.

That’s where art is born.

That’s what keeps us alive.

Let it pour through your unique human heart.

Let it become your offering.

Let’s light this sacred fire.

—Jason

P.S. When it comes to feminine embodiment, Jennie is the true artist here. She doesn’t just teach this—she lives it. She feels everything. She moves it all. Her sacred yearning could pull planets into orbit. Her radiance nourishes the cosmos. If you ever want to learn how to access the full power of your feminine, start with her.

Masculine Presence

“Further.” — Ken Kesey and the Merry Pranksters

So step back again.

Further.

Further.

Feel the room.

Feel the earth.

Feel the solar system.

Feel the galaxy.

Feel the UNIVERSE.

Feel.

Be it ALL.

Awareness becomes so big—because awareness is all there really is. It’s the sole truth.

We can argue about the contents of awareness—those are subjective.

But awareness itself?

Undeniable.

It’s the big one.

“Cognosco, ergo sum.”

(I am aware, therefore I am.)

It’s not just being aware of everything…

It’s being aware of awareness.

It’s a distinct and identifiable state.

And when you drop into it—

Your body shifts.

You sit upright.

Your breath deepens.

Your chest opens.

You become the Great Eye in the Sky.

You are the Beholder.

It’s not a person. Not a thing.

It’s a state of truth more real than anything else.

But if you stop there—

You’re a monk in a cave, staring at a wall for 80 years, achieving Nirvana.

Cool. (I guess...)

But we’re not here for that. (Are we?)

Remember what I said about Rick Rubin earlier this week?

You gain space on your cushion…

So you have more space in real life.

Space to hold the feminine storm of CHANGE.

That’s the game.

Awareness so vast it holds everything.

Then you step forward—as a man—

With direction, decision, choice, focus, and the discipline to stay with it.

You don’t run from the feminine.

You penetrate it.

With presence.

With love.

With unwavering eyes.

But that presence has to be run through your heart.

That… is… the secret.

It’s a lot of work.

But this is what you were born to do.

Not to chase enlightenment in some dusty cave.

You’ll get that when you die.

You were born to fuck the world open with your love.

With your presence, direction, and focus.

Want a better marriage?

Better health?

More money?

More meaning?

Certainty?

Purpose?

This is the way.

Not a religion.

A yoga.

A union with what is.

And what is?

Someone experiences something.

That someone is the masculine.

That something is the feminine.

And experience…

Is the human art.

The game.

The expression.

The antidote to boredom.

The adventure of your life.

Let’s light this sacred fire.

— Jason

Masculine Direction

Which Way Do I Go Now?

Masculine Direction

Good morning, my friends.

I appreciate the opportunity to continue sharing the work Jennie and I live and teach in the world.

On Monday, we explored Masculine Focus.

Yesterday, we dove into Feminine Sensation.

And today… yeah, let’s take a step back from that laser focus.

Let’s take a look around.

Because getting the lay of the land is essential to making good decisions.

An expanded awareness of what’s going on inside yourself…

Inside your environment…

Inside your woman…

That awareness gives you the critical ability to see what’s really happening.

Then—pair that awareness with the ability to make clear, decisive choices…

And you unlock the kingly masculine skill of Direction.

If Focus is the skill of the Warrior—the tenacious, fierce ability to stay on track no matter what—

Then Direction is the domain of the King.

Because what good is a laser if you don’t know where to point it?

Direction requires stillness. Perspective. Discernment.

It’s a skill that can be developed.

And when it is—it creates powerful riverbanks for the feminine to flow freely and wildly within.

You won’t always get it right.

But when you cultivate direction—when your woman feels your clarity and presence—she will begin to trust the path again.

Let’s light this sacred fire.

Let’s lead.

– Jason

Feminine Energy

Feminine Energy

Our kingly masculine side is stepping back, surveying the land, seeing clearly, and making moves.

But what’s the polarity to Direction?

It’s Feminine Energy.

The river.
The ocean.
The storm.
The wind.
The volcano.
The wild, untamable pulse of life itself.

The first step in feminine practice is sensation—feeling your feelings deeply and moving them through the body.
But the second step… is expression.

The sacred feminine expands in flavor, range, texture. From gentle light to feral dark, from sweet innocence to pure eroticism.
This is the fire.

🔥 Core Feminine Archetypes (Sacred & Wild)

Ones that hold the full sacred rebel range from innocent to feral, holy to profane.

1. The Maiden / Virgin
Innocent, curious, radiant, fresh.
Not “virgin” in the purity sense—but unclaimed, self-contained.
Think: Persephone, Virgin Mary, early Ariel energy.

2. The Mother
Nurturing, life-giving, fierce protector.
Spiritual or biological.
Think: Demeter, Gaia, or your local mama bear with tattoos and a minivan.

3. The Wild Woman / Huntress
Independent, sensual, raw, untamed.
She howls at the moon and says “fuck the rules.”
Think: Artemis, Kāli, Violet the Poop Cat 🐾

4. The Lover / Seductress
Magnetic, erotic, playful, deeply embodied.
She dances between pleasure and power.
Think: Aphrodite, Marilyn Monroe, the stripper with a lion heart.

5. The Queen / Sovereign
Commanding, dignified, full of boundaries and grace.
Embodied leadership with a velvet backbone.
Think: Cleopatra, Queen Esther, that woman who changes the room just by entering.

6. The Mystic / Priestess
Divine connection, intuition, sacred mystery.
She speaks in whispers and ritual.
Think: Isis, Hecate, Mary Magdalene.

7. The Crone / Wise Woman
She who holds death, decay, and transformation.
Knows when to cackle and when to cast spells.
Think: Baba Yaga, the Midwife, the Grandmother who sees through your bullshit.

⚔️ Shadow & Taboo Feminine (Vital & Edgy)

These are often repressed—but hold enormous power when embodied with consciousness:

• The Whore – sexual power, unashamed and unapologetic.

• The Bitch – fierce boundary-setter, lioness with a snarl.

• The Ice Queen – frozen heart… until she melts.

• The Victim – not to stay stuck in, but to move through.

• The Devouring Mother – control disguised as care.

• The Temptress – she stirs chaos, desire, and transformation.

• The Storm / Volcano – when emotion moves through everything.

You might be thinking:
Holy shit. That’s a lot of energy.

Yup.
It’s LIFE.
It’s ALL of it.

And that’s what you are too.
You. Are. All. Of. It.

Let’s light this sacred fire.

🔥
–Jason

P.S. This is Jennie’s sacred territory. She trains women (and men) in how to feel, move, and embody the full range of life-force expression.

Yes—men can embody feminine energy too.
Just look at Mick Jagger. Or Jason Momoa when he’s laughing and flowing.
It’s not softness—it’s radiance in motion.

But for the deepest feminine training…
Turn to the Queen.

#FeminineEnergy #SacredFeminine #Embodiment #PriestessPath #WildWomanRising #RadiantWoman #SensualPower #SacredMasculine #Polarity #EnergyInMotion #SpiritualFeminine #JasonAndJennie #VioletThePoopCat #FeminineArchetypes #QueenEnergy #LetItMove #LetsLightThisSacredFire

Ozzy Osbourne Tribute

Ozzy Osbourne died today.

I was just a kid in middle school when my friend David Smith first shared Blizzard of Ozz with me.
“Mr. Crowley” was the track that burned itself into my soul.

Not long after, I bought my very first piece of music: a used cassette of Blizzard of Ozz from my friend Clay Ryan.
Five bucks in the middle school hallway. I still remember the moment the tape changed hands—
and I probably still have that cassette somewhere.

Next came Bark at the Moon. David had it on vinyl.
And from that moment on, Ozzy was just… always there. Through my youth. Through adulthood.
He wasn’t my favorite—that was Rush.
But Ozzy?
He was the background fire. The godfather of grit.
From old Sabbath to solo Ozzy… he never left the scene.

I talk a lot about being a sacred rebel.
Not a rebel without a cause, or some juvenile rejection of rules—
but a rebel against the machine, the lies, the conformity.
A rebel who finds his own voice.

That was Ozzy.

A warrior.
A sacred rebel.
An icon.

I didn’t expect this one to hit me. I usually don’t feel much around celebrity deaths.
But this one?
Ozzy was more woven into the fabric of my life than I realized.

Today, I had lunch with my son.
I told him all my Ozzy stories—middle school, the tapes, the hallway.
And on the ride home, he threw on Blizzard of Ozz and told me how cool it is.

Wow.

Just like that, a legend is gone.

And I wonder—what mark will I leave?
What will be remembered of me?

For now, I raise a glass.

To you, Ozzy.
May you truly rest in peace…
or begin the next adventure—
the way only you could:

As a Sacred Rebel.

Here’s to your next journey, brother.
- Jason

Feminine Sensation

I’m having fun sharing the core polarity practices that have helped me and Jennie build a long-lasting, passionate intimacy.

Yesterday, I talked about the Masculine Witness—and one of his three essential skills: Focus.

But what’s the feminine polarity to that?

Sensation.

Another word for it?

Feeling.

In my language—the Masculine is the Beholder.

The Feminine is everything it beholds.

And in its most human form… that means feeling.

Not just thinking about feelings.

But deep, rich, wild, unapologetic embodiment of emotion.

The highs.

The lows.

The rage.

The love.

The sexy sensuality…

The muddy, messy frustration (shoutout to Violet the Poop Cat).

SHE is all of it.

This is the practice.

Feel it all.

Feel more.

Feel deeper.

And EMBODY it.

This is Feminine Sensation.

And it is magnetic.

Focus creates sensation.

Sensation invites focus.

Polarity.

Let’s go.

—Jason

P.S. My wife Jennie is the Queen of this. She weaves movement, emotion, and embodiment into practices that open up a woman’s entire capacity to feel. If you ever get the chance to practice with her, take it.

#FeminineEnergy

#EmotionalAlchemy

#SacredPolarity

#FeelToHeal

#EmbodiedFeminine

#SacredRebel

#MagnetismAndPower

Masculine Focus

The Flame of Focus

There’s a South Park episode where one character mocks another with a terrible accent:

“You rack disciprine.”

And honestly?

I’ve been accused of that more than once by mentors and teachers.

One day, one of my more eclectic teachers gave me this challenge:

Sit still. Meditate. Stare at a candle flame. Breathe deep. Focus.

That’s it.

And yet—this simple ritual is one I now offer to almost every man I work with.

Because the Masculine is the witness. The still point. The unwavering center.

But… We’re not just spirits floating in consciousness—we are incarnated HUMANS.

And that means we must bring our awareness into the body.

Into this world.

And that requires the essential masculine skill:

FOCUS.

Most of us (myself included) are fractured by the noise of our phones and the distractions of social media culture.

But if you want to penetrate your woman and your world with fierce, unwavering love…

You must learn to focus.

Try it.

Sit in silence.

Breathe deep.

Stare at a candle.

Do five minutes.

Nothing else.

Lasered.

Unshakeable.

The house could be falling down.

Your woman might have her bags packed and one foot out the door.

But your stillness is your gift.

Your focus is your offering.

Not as cold detachment.

But with grounded heart.

With presence.

With love.

And just this morning I listened to a small piece by master producer Rick Rubin. In Stillness awareness training… we EXPAND our awareness, highs and lows. And we find peace on the cushion… so that we can take that peace out to the world.

You don’t need to be perfect.

Just practice.

Every day.

And watch how the world begins to open to you.

The feminine will feel you.

Your life will reorganize.

Because you showed up with Discipline.

Focus.

Persistence.

And Heart.

Let’s go.

#SacredMasculine #MasculineFocus #EmbodiedPresence #DisciplineWithHeart #ModernWarrior #SacredDiscipline #StillnessIsPower #FocusAndLead #MasculineEnergy #WarriorSpirit

Polarity Feminine

Polarity saved my marriage on Wednesday.

Yesterday, I laid out the Masculine: the witness, the unchanging stillness, the spacious presence.

Today is Feminine Friday.

If the Masculine is the witness—

then the Feminine is what is being seen.

She is the world, the universe, the storm, the sunrise, the dance.

She is change itself—incarnated in human form.

Where the Masculine steps back to witness…

The Feminine steps forward to become.

She is the quality of fullness, love, and light.

Not abstract light—radiant, emotional, wild, alive.

Imagine being so fully in your body that you become everything you feel.

Imagine being so drenched in love that your emotions become offerings—poured out into the world without apology.

Imagine being so connected to the moment that you become the weather, the moonlight, the wind, the wildfire.

This is the Feminine.

And when Jennie began to embody this fullness in herself—

when she stepped into her own radiance, movement, and emotion—

it created the arc of polarity between us.

Her light called out my witness.

Her movement drew forth my depth.

And everything changed.

Tomorrow (Saturday), I’ll share real-world examples of how we live this daily—so you can feel it, not just understand it.

Let’s go.

#SacredFeminine #Polarity #MasculineAndFeminine #ShadesOfIntimacy #DivineUnion #FeminineFriday #JasonSmith

Polarity Masculine

Polarity – The Masculine

Yesterday I shared how polarity saved my marriage—by honoring the differences.

But what is polarity?

There are two sides to polarity, and today we begin with the Masculine.

Let me be clear: terms like “masculine” come with baggage. And that’s okay—because I’m not using it the way culture does. I’m using it the way I live it.

The Masculine is the witness.

It is the side of you that never changes.

It is awareness—essential, rooted, eternal—incarnated in a human.

It’s that moment when you step back…

Out of the mind,

Out of the swirl,

And into a vast stillness that simply sees.

The Masculine holds the quality of freedom, space, presence.

Imagine being so present, you could feel everyone in the room.

Imagine being so tuned-in, you could feel every part of your woman—her body, her emotions, her thoughts, her soul.

That’s the masculine pole.

That’s what began to shift in me.

When I stopped performing and started witnessing—

When I stopped fixing and started feeling—

My wife Jennie began to respond to me in a completely new way.

Everything changed.

Tomorrow, we’ll talk about the Feminine.

Let’s go.

#SacredMasculine #Polarity #Presence #MasculineAwareness #ShadesOfIntimacy #ModernMan #SacredUnion #MasculineAndFeminine #JasonSmith

Beyond Medicine: The Power of Polarity

Dear Family,

What an incredible, humbling weekend! I’m overflowing with gratitude and need to share the magic of our latest Modern Day Warrior men’s workshop with you.

Beyond Medicine: The Power of Polarity

You may know that I have worked with plant medicine in Mexico, but that’s just one piece of the puzzle. At my core, I explore polarity—the dance of masculine and feminine energies that shapes the universe. Polarity workshops, like the one I led this weekend, help us tap into these forces to find balance, purpose, and connection. It’s about recognizing that there’s a bigger picture beyond our individual perspectives—and it’s transformative.

The Modern Day Warrior Experience

This weekend, I had the privilege of guiding a group of men through Modern Day Warrior, a workshop designed to help men deepen their masculine essence while integrating the feminine. In today’s world, many men—successful or not—struggle to align their energy, purpose, relationships, and businesses. The pain is real, and the solution lies in taking responsibility: the ability to respond to life’s challenges with clarity and power.

We kicked off Friday night with a potent blend of movement, meditation, and breathwork. It’s simple yet profound: learn to breathe, learn to move, and embrace your desires. We explored three pillars of the masculine:

• Warrior Focus: Cultivating discipline and presence.

• Kingly Direction: Leading with purpose and vision.

• Magical Presence: Connecting with intuition and creativity.

And yes, we got wet—diving into ice baths to test our resilience and sharpen our focus!

Saturday brought more breathwork, meditation, and connection. The men cooked steaks for dinner, then joined a group of women who challenged them to interact with the feminine with grace. Sunday was raw and real: more movement, breath, and a journey to “the pit,” where the men faced their pain and rage, transforming it into clarity and power.

We closed with Sacred Theater, where each man offered a unique gift to the group. Standing in a circle, arms around each other, I shared a final message: Men need men. For thousands of years, men hunted together, faced death together, and supported each other to provide for their communities. This archetypal work runs deep in our veins and calls us to gather in the wilderness today.

A Prayer of Gratitude

I’m left with a heart full of gratitude for being called to this work and a prayer that it was delivered with depth and grace. Thank you for being part of this journey with me.

Join Us for More

Ready to dive in? We’re hosting two more workshops this year:

• Shades of Intimacy IVX: August 15-17

• Modern Day Warrior X: September 19-21

Reply to this email or visit Jasonfsmith.com for details. I’d love to see you there!

With love and gratitude,
Jason

Band of Brothers

Hello friends! How are you? It's a beautiful semi spring morning here in Utah, Saturday April 5th, 2025. It's just gorgeous outside. I included a photo of Mount Timpanogos at the end of this blogpost.  This newsletter answers a question I was asked recently: What is the Modern Day Warrior Intensive really about?  The one coming up starting next Friday, April 11th? Read on dear friends!

Band of Brothers

FROM THIS DAY TO THE ENDING OF THE WORLD,
BUT WE IN IT SHALL BE REMEMBER'D;
WE FEW, WE HAPPY FEW, WE BAND OF BROTHERS;
FOR HE TODAY THAT SHEDS HIS BLOOD WITH ME
SHALL BE MY BROTHER
-Henry V

My friend Elijah is coming to the Modern Day Warrior next week (starting April 11th, 2025) and he asked me to help him describe the event, so he can recruit more men to come.

This got me thinking, and I remember something a teacher of mine taught me: Do the Math.
Figure shit out for yourself.  What really is the Modern Day Warrior Intensive? To me? What am I really doing here?

I’ve been through the wringer of marketing, saying things in such a way to capture the attention of my audience.  But that all feels like bullshit here. Like… really… what is really going on here?

And so I wrote, and wrote, and wrote.  Pages. All of it was good, but all of it was bullshit.  It was just… ad copy.

It didn’t describe what I really do, what this is really about.

Then, that  night, in the middle of the night I woke up and I realized what it was.

It’s a group of men, gathering together, to get real and raw, and deepen into the spiritual meaning of the masculine, of being a MAN in this world.

That’s all it is.  Men getting together, like we did in the old times, out hunting, providing, gathering around the fire, a celebration, a feast for the masculine.

So it doesn’t matter if you are old or young. If you are an Elder, you need a group of good men to pass on your wise wisdom to, as well as gain their support in your later years. If you are young, come learn at the feet of the elders and give them your strength and youth.

I don’t care if your body isn’t working, you are fat, out of shape, and eat like shit.  The solution is a group of good men supporting you.

I don’t care if your life is meaningless, and you have no roots, no overall direction.  The solution is a group of good men challenging you.

I don’t care if your relationships are all burning down around you.  The solution is a group of good men calling you on your bullshit.

I don’t care if your business is burning, or you can’t even find a job.  The solution is a group of great men sharing their wisdom.

The most successful men in this world have a TRIBE OF OTHER MEN THEY BELONG TO SUPPORTING THEM.

A place to get real with the facts of your life, and raw with the emotions.  To get relevant in your direction and focus on RESULTS.

It’s time for radical self-honesty and radical ownership of your life.

We all feel the fading of the masculine, as men are diminished and we are left wondering where the hell we stand in the midst of it. The old days of toxic men who were bullies and bastards is over.  But we traded in some degree of strength when we became softer.

No one argues against the move toward equanimity, but at the same time something has been lost.  And the answer isn’t about going back to the old days of “shut the hell up and bring me a turkey pot pie!”.  It’s about moving forward into a new, deeper level of masculine presence, direction, and focus, as a tribe of men supporting each other, Elders, Youth, and those in between.

Power.  Power in your body, clarity in your direction, tight and trustworthy in your connections, and abundant in your prosperity.

Iron Sharpens Iron

Father's and Sons

Fathers: See the man your son can be, not the man you need him to be.

My father died 5 years ago yesterday.

Here is a picture of him and I:

My father, Francis, was a cowardly man, passive aggressive, and reached out to hurt people in sly, sneaky, vicious ways. He also was the victim of not having a true father, and didn't know how to deal with his own pain, except to turn to resentment and then to hurt others in sly underhanded ways.

On Saturday, five years after his death, I communed with him, conversing with his spirit in a meditation.  I understood from that conversation that he lacked the ability to see me in any other way than in the way he needed me to be.  And he needed me to be a certain way for him to feel good… and because I wasn’t what he needed, he stewed on a secret resentment for over 50 years….

Of course, he never got what he needed from his son… because he never got what he needed from the man who pretended to be his father.

He was untrained in the ways of the deep Masculine, being raised by a 'cold fish' of a man who didn't like him. (The man pretended to be his father for 19 years, but my father knew something was wrong but couldn't pinpoint it. At age 19 he learned that this man who raised him was not his father, and had resentfully raised him to hide the shame of his mother's pregnancy).

In this communion I saw through veils of stories and confusion that plagued generations of men in my lineage.

And I saw my own son.  On one side of who I wanted him to be for me…. And on the other side I saw him as he truly was and could be.

I can see his true authentic potential. And when he’s not living up to that… I can offer him encouragement, challenge, and insight.

This is the sacred job of a father. To see your son’s authentic potential, and communicate that to him in the most skillful way possible. Run it through your heart.

And… be careful that you clear your own lens of perception from the disappointment of your own relationship with your own father. 

It can get really mixed up, and it can be very confusing.  The psychological state of co-dependency, needing someone to be something so you feel whole.

The steps are simple, yet difficult to achieve.

First, become an independent soul, loving yourself, forgiving yourself, clearing yourself of your own lifetime of baggage and stories. 

With your lens more and more clear, see your son as who he truly is, and love him for that, in the deep ways of the masculine (with depth and stillness and presence).

Then… and only then… see  your son for who he can truly be.  And call him to that.  Challenge him, encourage him, teach him.

He can reject you, and there is nothing wrong with that. But when you’ve cleared your lens, love him for who he is NOW, and THEN call him to more… that is the path of the Divine Father and you are fulfilling one of the most powerful promises of Divine Fatherhood.

As a Son

So what can you do as a son, ye who did not have this divine father?  Forgive your Father, for he knows not what he does… and follow the same steps. Clean your ego lens, figure out who you are, and stay true to it vs what you expect your Father wants for you.

Here is a photo of me and my father, a few months before he died:

The Call to Adventure

You are just hanging around doing your thing and then…

Bam! Gandalf shows up and invites you on an adventure!

For Bilbo it was voluntary. Come do this crazy thing! And Bilbo was like…. “Nah… it’ll be fine!”

But… something ate at him. Something called him inside, a call of lost wistful things, something in his heart… and he said… Fuck it! And off he went!!!

Now Frodo was a bit different. Gandalf came a calling again, but this time… there was something else going on. This wasn’t just a call to adventure… this was a call of conscience. The whole world would suffer if Frodo refused. The adventure was very much THRUST upon him.

The ring very much came upon him… and he had no choice but to respond.

But… are you Bilbo? Or are you Frodo? The wizard is here… you’ve been called for the fun of it, or because catastrophe has struck.

Or you are just happy at home doing your thing and you have no intention on going on an adventure.

“We are plain quiet folk and have no use for adventures. Nasty disturbing uncomfortable things! Make you late for dinner! I can’t think what anybody sees in them.”

-Bilbo Baggins

Expansion

EXPANSION.

That's the sum of what I offer.

In all ways.

Body. Spirit. Relationships. Business. Bedroom.

EXPANSION.

AIR CONDITIONER

ASSIGNMENT #10

Saturday Morning, September 4th, 2021

13 DAYS TO SHADES OF INTIMACY

Today you are going to do a MORNING CALIBRATION. This is how you are going to do it:

Find some space, and lie down or sit down in a comfortable place. Bring your phone, and set a timer for 20 minutes. Start the timer. Then start this video on Youtube: https://youtu.be/OE9bF80KQGk

Listen to the sound of the air conditioner for 20 minutes. Just keep bringing your mind back to it. Over and over again. Into the empty sound of the air conditioner. Don't worry if you fall asleep. That's okay too.

When your alarm goes off, get up, and immediately start writing down in a journal or notebook some of the things that came up in the empty space for you. Focus on the positive. Try this:

Write down Helpful Productive Thoughts.

When you are done writing.... sit back and click the following link and listen to this chanting sound for as long as you feel like. 30 seconds. 30 minutes. Just hear it. There is nothing to do with it. Just listen for as long as it feels good to you.

OM SO HUM: https://youtu.be/qA4XX15xatk

That's your Saturday assignment. This is to prepare you for your experience that is coming in 13 short days. We are clearing the pallet today. Emptying you out, so we can fill you back up with empty goodness. 🙏

Feeling Good

Feelin’ good

Fourth assignment!

What do you want? Don’t make it too complicated. A one sentence ‘want’. Something that creates a sense of happiness and wellbeing inside.

Once you have identified it in your mind, identify it in your body. What does it feel like? If it doesn’t FEEL good……start over. Re-align. Perhaps drum up the same want but form a different, cleaner angle. Or pick something else. The key is feeling GOOD.

I want to have a powerful work-out

I want to see my partner smile

I want to snuggle with my kids

I want to take my dog for a walk

I want a Ford Mustang

I want more money

I want an unexpected windfall

I want my ‘insert body part (knee, back, elbow, etc.)’ to feel good

I want to be delighted

I want a full heart

I want to hear my child laugh

I want to laugh

Now that you have your want and the feeling associated with your want, set a timer for 17 seconds. Close your eyes and feel the want. Align to the absolute best feelings that the want brings. Hold onto that feeling until the timer goes off.

That’s it!

Eye Gazing - Synchronized Breath - Assignment #3

One of the simplest and most powerful ways to create intimacy with your partner is synchronized breathing and eye gazing. We’ll go over it here and ask that you practice as much as you can before the Intensive. 2 minutes each morning together would be a great start, but you can do up to 5 minutes in the morning, and 5 minutes at night that would be great.

Here is how to do it.

Sit comfortably across from each other, perhaps cross legged, with your knees almost touching. Try to keep yourself upright, no slouching.

Set a timer on your phone so you don’t have to worry about it. Try 2 minutes at first, work your way up to 5 minutes at a time.

Gaze into each other’s LEFT eye. Ask your partner to point to their own left eye, so you know which eye to look into. This helps because if you are gazing back and forth from left to right… it gets distracting.

Maintain the gaze on the left eye for the full two minutes.

Finally, if you can, synchronize your breath. It’s usually good for the masculine partner to set a steady solid rhythm. but he has to be cognizant of her breathing, so that he breathes at a rhythm that works for her. It might take some practice to get good at this. Sometimes one partner breathes very shallow, so you may have to request that they breathe deeper so you can see the stomach or chest rise and fall in your peripheral vision.

That’s it. Do it for 2 minutes.

RESULT

It will immediately create intimacy, and for some, initially, it can be uncomfortable. The eyes are the window to the soul, as they say, and it can be really vulnerable locking your gaze like this.

But… that’s the point. We gently encourage you to commit to it and do it every day for the 20 days before the Intensive. The benefits of this simple practice are profound. They help you connect to each other on a daily basis, deeper and deeper, and produce opportunities for both strength and vulnerability to arise. Great healing can happen when you can maintain this kind of contact day in and day out.

Jason and Jennie

The Picture below shows how a couple can get even closer together, but is not the recommended starting place.

The Alchemist

Shades of Intimacy XI - Assignment #2 - The Alchemist

The second Assignment for Shades of Intimacy XI is to read or listen to The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. It has some powerful principles that will help you in the upcoming intensive.

For those of you not coming, you will gain a lot just by reading / listening to this book, I promise. We’ll talk more about it in the next 20 days.